Living on this earth. Trying to figure out if you have a clue. But when you think back to all the happy memories. You start to cry and start to sob, wishing you could go back to the time in life where it all got ruined. Where you feel unloved and life crashed like a airplane coming down on the twin towers. Your insides all feel like a drain everything is just washing away and your soul is getting swept up and you can't picture yourself anywhere but on the path of life or death. Your stuck at a cross road where you go down one path but stop and get stuck half way and get lost so you take the other path but that path you can't seem too find the way in. Then you just loose it all together, and you can't think and you just want to sit down and cry your eyes out still you stop breathing and you just want everything in your head to just go away and seep into another world. Your stuck and the world hates you and it's all just caving in on you. Your loved by little people. Those people would be crushed if you where gone but then you think to yourself i can't rest in peace if i'm living or dead, death the word that comes to my head every second of the day every moment. Trying to run away from hate and try to run away from all these words, all this pain that you can't take feels like a bullet moved through out your body and rage just screamed out of your mouth. Screaming to god for a new start but now your left in the world to just sit and not a single person can change how you feel you feel like you don't belong anywhere so your left blank living or dead your left your still alive in some way i just want to leave and not be able to think move or remember anything. I want to just be nothing as if i never existed. The world. Is one big place. Where it drags you down to your knee's and makes you beg for your sorrows.
Life.
